Monday, February 07, 2011

i can make more than just crafts around here...





about a month ago my husband came home to find this on his pillow...a positive pregnancy test...left by me of course.


it was very bitter sweet for us as...with my other two pregnancies, two weeks after i get a positive test i become extremely ill for about 5 months.

i hoped and prayed that this time would be different.


the nausea came right on time.
it was fierce and relentless.
3 days later i was in ER.
6 days after that i found myself there again.
in less than 2 weeks i had lost 11 pounds.
i could not eat or drink, my body was in starvation mode.
i cannot describe to you the pain that comes with this.

i spend my days and nights praying and crying.



my first trip to the ER, i recieved a text from my sister-in-law margo, saying she was flying in that night to stay with us and help out in any way she could.

she has been here ever since.

she takes care of my house and brings me little things to eat.

but most of all she cares for my kids and loves each of them exactly the way they are.
she comes in at night, sits on my bed, and tells me about their day together and little things she appreciates about them.


i owe her so much and will someday find a way to repay her.


this last friday i received in home IV care.
i have an IV in my hand and another line into my stomach for my anti-nausea medication.

my husband wakes up in the middle of the night and changes my IV bags and tubes, he also has to change the location of the line into my stomach daily, he holds my hand at night and listens to me cry even though it means no sleep for him...i cry as i think of all he has done for me and am incredibly grateful for him.

i can eat little bits of food ever since receiving the in home care, and can even eat ice chips now.
it has made such a difference and has made life somewhat bearable.




my dad checks in on me pretty much daily with a phone call or text to see how i am doing.
the other day he called me and i was really struggling.

i said to him, "one of the hardest parts about this is that i just keep praying, and i feel like the Lord just doesn't care about me ."

my dad responded with, "the Lord has you exactly where he wants you to be."



i knew he was right.  

with my pregnancies combined, so far i have spend over a year of my life bed ridden and completely miserable.



but when it comes down to it i wouldn't trade the experience for anything.
it has been the hardest thing i have ever done.
it has stretched me beyond anything i ever would have thought i was capable of.

i has made me grateful for every single day that i feel healthy.

if i ever start to feel like i can't do something...i think back to how horrible this experience was and a fire ignites inside me.

i cannot think of a single day that my kids and i (when i am not sick) have not lived a day to it's fullest.

that my friends is a gift.
i owe that to the lord and the things he has taught me through the trials he has given me.


i want to say thank you to my friends and my family who have fasted and prayed on my behalf...i feel it.


*if you have been checking my blog wondering where i have been, now you know...
 
and you better not believe even for a second that you have seen the last of me!





147 comments:

Lace said...

Oh my goodness, sweet girl! I will be praying for you! Congratulations on the little one, though! I hope things get better for you soon!

Griselda said...

sending you hugs!!!

Darcy said...

Blessings to you. I just gave birth to #4 and the pregnancy ended with 3 weeks of bed rest. I had a really tough time with that! I will have you in my prayers.

Congratulations on your new sweet addition!

me said...

You are incredible. Your children will be so grateful for the fight you gave to bring them here. Hang in there!!! Sending lots of prayers your way!

Randy and Capri Bird said...

I am so sorry Tanya. I really do hope that things get better soon. Thinking and praying for you. PLEASE let me know if there is ANYTHING I can do. Watch the kids. Bring dinners. Whatever. I don't even care that it's an hour away. Just let us know.

On another note...due in September huh? Grandma's birthday calender for September is pretty full ;)

erin said...

Oh girlie. I know EXACTLY what you're going through as I just went through this. My son Liam was born two weeks ago at 35 weeks gestation. I had the home IVs, a zofran pump, injections and all kinds of issues. At 35 weeks my body just had enough and the doctor couldn't stop my labor. Thank God Liam was born healthy and needed no time in the NICU.

You are so so blessed to have family who are willing and able to help you. My family lives in NY and I had to go through all of this with my daughter (who is 18 months now) watching. It was heart breaking to tell her mommy can't color right now because she's too sick. Then because of all my tubes and such she had to constantly be told "no touch mommy. Mommy has an owie" She actually grew afraid to come near me towards the end of my pregnancy. Today was the first day since July that she's wanted to and been able to cuddle with her mama. It's been one of the best days of my life.

Anyway, I am thinking of you and praying you are feeling better soon. It's all worth it when baby is in your arms, I promise!

Annie-Staten said...

Congratulation! That is so exciting! I'm so sorry that you have to go through so much to bring another sweet soul into this world! It really is a sacrifice that some would not make after going through it once! So glad that you have the faith to continue on! I hope you start feeling better and can enjoy your pregnancy more! I will keep you in my prayers!

Kimberly said...

Congratulations! I'm sorry that pregnancy is so rough on you, and I hope it gets better soon and doesn't last for 5 months this time. From my own experience and listening to other women that have gone through major trials to have children, I've learned that the difficulty makes you appreciate your children even more, and it often strengthens your testimony because it allows you to see the hand of the Lord in your life. And as horrible as your symptoms are, it means that life inside of you is growing the way it should which is such blessing. I'll be praying for you!

tomiannie said...

Oh, goodness -- I feel for you! My pregnancies are similarly nightmarish, which is why we have a smaller family than we originally intended. No laughing matter, that's for sure. It is so hard to be incapacitated for so long. What a wonderful sister you have to take care of you and your family! Such a blessing to be surrounded by so many loving and supportive people. I pray that your burden will be lightened and that your little one will be healthy and strong!

Kjohnson said...

You don't know me but I've followed your blog for quite some time. Why does that sound so creepy when you actually type it out? Anyways how sad that you get so sick :( but what a blessing you are able to have a baby! You already know that of course though. It will get better and I'm sure it really feels worth all the months of sickness the moment you hold your new baby in your arms!

Heather said...

I'm so sorry things are so hard! You can make it through!!! One of my favorite quotes by President Monson is posted on my blog here...

http://www.jimmyandheather.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/01/8x10-endured-overcome-monson.jpg

It applies to like any life circumstance... especially pregnancy. You know others have experienced what you're going through and have overcome. You will too!!! Take care. Sending well wishes your way!

Katri said...

Oh my goodness! That is crazy. I'm so sorry you are that sick. I hope things get better. I am glad you have a loving family that is there to help you. Keep going! You can do it (with the help of our Savior of course)
Cardigans and Cookie Dough

I Am Momma - Hear Me Roar said...

I can't imagine how frustrating and difficult this must be for you. You must be an amazing mother since you have such a positive outlook on things. What an inspiration you are.

Cheri

Tiff said...

Oh goodness this made me cry! My thoughts are prayers are with you, your family, and your baby.

Me said...

Oh my goodness, my heart goes out to you! I'm so glad you were able to post so that I, and many others, can keep you and your family in our thoughts and prayers!

Miss Madison's Mommy said...

Wow, that is a lot to deal with while your trying to grow a sweet bundle of joy! You are so blessed to be taken care of by those around you, in fact I'm pretty sure you have the BEST SIL EVER! Stay strong!!

Brittany said...

Many prayers your way. Congrats to you andyour family!! And it sounds like you have one amazing SIL! :)

Genevieve said...

congrats!! i'm sorry you've been so sick. i'm due in june and its been rough. between bedrest, restrictions, and around the clock sickness- i've told my hubby this could be our last!! :) but its amazing the peace we feel through prayer and yay for family! hope you're doing well and get better soon! (or at least things get more tolerable soon!!)

Julia said...

Congratulations and WOW...you've been through a lot lately! I am sending sweet thoughts your way...hopefully you'll feel better soon!

Heather Rose Chase said...

First of all, congratulations! Second, I completely feel your pain, as I too had the most miserable pregnancies that involved hospitalizations and dramatic weight loss thanks to the relentless and persistent nausea that plagued me 24/7, all nine months right up to delivery. So many times I thought I was going to lose my mind! And worst of all were other people's "helpful" remedies. Maybe ginger helped old Aunt Edna, but it certainly wasn't helping me! But the wonderful thing is that it does end, it's not a lifelong affliction and the best part is the reward... a beautiful and precious new life. You are doing the most amazing job that anyone can do! Hugs to you and all the people who are supporting you! This too shall pass!

amber said...

Congratulation!!!!! .

Wani said...

I pray that your pregnancy will be a healthy and safe one for you and your baby.

Em Russ said...

oh Tanya! Congratulations and thank goodness for Margo!! Hang in there!

Shannon Hairr Photography said...

Oh my goodness, I can't imagine what you are going through. I love your blog and have missed your posts. I am so glad you have family that is taking such good care of you and your kids! I will pray for your quick recovery and healthy baby!!!

Brit said...

Congrats you guys! I can't even begin to know what you're going through, but I'm sending prayers and hugs your way! In the south we just say, "Bless your heart!"

springrose said...

I have what you have. It is acutally a condition that happens in less than 4% of women. And once you have it you are more likely to get it again. It is called hyperthemisis. Don't know if I spelled it correctly. I have had pic lines and done the whole IV change. My first pic line actually tore out so I have a nice scar. Sometimes people ask me if it is track marks. Yep, I'm a druggie at the dentist. Makes sense right!? Just remember that there is a end. And a wonderful one at that! You can make it, one day at a time or one hour at a time. But next thing you know your little one will be in your arms. Just remember to drink. I actually had to drink homemade Italian sodas with my last pregnacy to keep from getting to dehydrated. Gatorade made my tounge swell and water is the wrong PH balance for your body, so you generally trow it up. The recipe is simple. Italian soda syrup. I get mine at cash and carry. Club soda and ice chips. You just use about 1-1/2 shot glasses full of the syrup to a large glass of club soda. Mix and taste to see if you want more. YOu can mix in half and half (1TBL) if you want but I never did. They have so many flavors, rootbeer, pinacolada, pinapple and coconut were my favorites. Hope you feel better soon! And know there are some of us 4% that completely understad! Hugs and prayers your way!! For you, your little one and especially your family. I know how hard this is on them as well!!!

Tammy said...

I have enjoyed your blog for almost a year now. Your family is adorable and one more added to it will be even more precious. I will be praying for all of you.

Rae said...

You are such an inspiration! Hugs to you and your sweet family! Congratulations on your new bug-a-boo and I will be praying for you and yours!!!

Brenbren said...

I can't even imagine that. My pregnancies have all been pretty easy. It's the post partum depression that kicks my butt. I was suicidal after having my daughter. Soooo.... I am LDS and I thought, "if I prayed hard enough, read my scriptures long enough, God would take this away." He didn't and I didn't understand. The truth was I was expecting a miracle and sometimes you just have to live through the crap because it gets you to the ultimate goal, eternal life. It has stretched me further then I thought I could stretch. Guess what, I am still surviving. I am a different person. It has helped me be more patient, extremely more understanding and charitable, and non-judgmental. You just never know what another is going through. I will keep you in my prayers. I loved what your dad said. It's sometimes hard to see that when you are going through it. Hang in there and remember "and it came to pass," not "and it came to stay."

LMShunk said...

so sorry. I spent the last year of my life going through the same thing. i'm pretty sure it doesn't help you feel any better to tell you that, but i am. i wouldn't wish hyperemesis on anyone.

bless you...

Auntie Lolo said...

Oh my goodness! Congrats and I'm sorry! :) I cannot imagine what you must be going through! Sending prayers your way!

Cap Creations said...

Wow so much you are going through! So sorry. I will keep you and your family in prayer!

Rachael said...

Praying for you and your sweet blessing inside you. May God wrap his arms around you and comfort you. Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."

Lorie said...

COngratulations and I hope that you are feeling better soon.

Amy@OCD: Obsessive Creative Disorder said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you- I started following your blog because when I read your posts I thought she sounds like someone I would be great friends with! Trey and Lucy are absolutely precious and I hope you have a speedy recovery as you prepare for your newest addition.

christa @ enSTYLEpedia said...

oh my goodness girl...you are going to receive some very special blessings! you are a mommy hero...if I had to deal with pregnancy like that i don't think i would have had more than one child. how wonderful to have such great family support surrounding you.
congrats.

Jen~ Lipstick and Laundry said...

You poor girl... I will include you in my prayers...

SewSara said...

thank goodness for margo - she's awesome!

hang in there! (tell margo hi :) )

Chasey and Cash said...

Congrats!! And I'm SOOO sorry you are so sick! I was a horrible pregnant girl with morning, noon and night sickness lasting until about 20 weeks......but you have me beat and I can't even imagine what you are feeling right now. I'm glad you have family to help!! Rest up...with 3 kids, life will just be getting interesting! :)

3creativechics said...

I'm sorry to hear that you are sick like you are. You are an amazing woman with such great faith. I have prayed for you and will continue to pray. God Bless You!

Emily said...

Darn it. You're in our thoughts and prayers.

Erick and Megan said...

Oh bless your heart. It makes me cry just to think of you sick in bed. I am dreading another pregnancy even though I want it because of being sick. Hoping that your months go quickly. Do you have tivo?? Maybe Netflicks??

Samantha Nicole said...

Oh sweet friend! You are handling this all with rockstar status. Please know you are being prayed for and thought of by people that you don't even know.

Kristina said...

What a horrible way to spend your pregnancies! But how incredibly blessed you are to have such a WONDERFUL sister-in-law and not have to worry about your other two children! Still though, you inspire me, and I know I'll be thinking of you the next time I'm pregnant and tempted to feel sorry for myself. I'll be praying for you, babe.

Kim said...

This post makes me want to cry! I get sick for five months too, not IV sick you poor girl! YOU CAN DO THIS!!! :) Good luck!

Lorissa said...

The extra cute ones make you sicker than normal. Your going to have a stunner!!!

Daisha said...

Congratulations Tanya! I'm so sorry you get so horribly ill when pregnant. I'm always in awe how something that is so natural and God-given as pregnancy and birth can be so difficult for some, but the Lord does know us best and what we can handle (love what your dad said as I've asked the same question many times myself).
I had tears streaming down my cheeks as I read your post. All the feelings you expressed I have felt myself as pregnancy is very bittersweet for Cole and I with all the miscarriages I've had. Everything you said rang so true to me. I hope that everyday gets a little better for you. I'll be praying for you and can't wait to see you this summer at the reunion!

Ooty said...

stay strong! I had the same in both of my pregnancies...it is very hard i was 6 months in bed losing weight =( BUT once it is over =) it is over! I wish that time will fly super fast for you <3

Andrews Family said...

Ohhhh how I wish I could be your neighbor right now!!! I am so excited for you (because you are going to have another AWESOME kid-I mean...how much more awesome do they get than Trey & Lucy?!) but I'm crying with you right now for all that you have to go through in these next few months. You really are one AMAZING woman! Hang in there and know that you can call me anytime to cry, scream, throw up with, laugh, giggle, tell stories with, etc. If you are ever up in the middle of the night...I'll be up also (because of the time change)...so know that I'm only a phone call away :) I love you so much and will pray for you often.

Love, Amy

Palillo,Ganchillo...siempre said...

I am here just to send hugs and tell you that I know the way you feel, kisses. I hope you get better soon. J

Skye O. said...

Well now that I can see the computer screen again after sobbing....

CONGRATS & thanks for your faith & example. It reminds me of my labors and the strength I have from just remembering them. We can do hard things!!

Love the picture of little Trey taking care of his momma! So sweet.

Sewing Princess said...

I really hope you will feel better soon. it's a pity something so wonderful for your family has to carry so much pain.

Mrs. Blimes said...

Hang in there mama! We'll put up some prayers for you and your sweet family tonight. You are an inspiring mother and I hope all is well again soon!

Kacie said...

Oh, Tanya, I'm so sorry you are sick but I am happy that your famliy will be growing. I hope you feel better soon. You are in my prayers!

Rafahi Family said...

Tanya, I get pretty sick too when I am pregnant. We have been prying for you to feel better, and I will be by soon. :-)

HappieBaoBao said...

I came across your blog a week ago, and read through all the entries in one sitting! I think you're amazing. Kids and craft galore~!I've been checking back daily hoping for new post, and #1 Congratulations on the new addition #2 I wish I had some awesome remeady but I don't... I've havn't had the blessing of having kids yet. So I just wanted to tell you, I think you are amazing. I really do ^^

Sally said...

My sister is the same way. They put her on the same medication they give chemotherapy patients and she does great her entire pregnancy. She has had four healthy, wonderful children this same way.

alex and david kelly said...

congratulations! i remember how bad you were when you stayed with us in england, i thought i was bad! it was all worth it in the end. Praying for you all,xxx

Mango Mom said...

I just can't even imagine what you are going through. Mother's have to go through so much to bring their babies into this world, and what wonderful blessings they are. I just had my 4th. Hang in there! You can do it!

Stef and ryan said...

Hi Tanya,
I had hyper emesis with all 3 of my kids. Those were honestly some dark days. I remember how mad I would get when other people would say "I had morning sickeness too", "try crackers before bed" and of course the women who just get a little nauseous in the morning (my sister)

Nothing compares, it's undescribable.

I stopped with 3 and I've had so much dental work, I could have bought a new car.
Truth be told, I would do it all over again. gosh dang kids!
hang in there.

Happy Mom said...

It's so beautiful that there are women who knowingly are willing to go through this to bring a child into this world.

What a sacred sacrifice.

It's a beautiful thing.

Emily said...

Feel better soon :) I was checking daily wondering what in the world the had happened, now I understand. I spent many months on bedrest with my first 2 pregnancies. I know it's terrible! Rest and relax, we will be here when you get back to be wonderfully happy for you. Congrats!

pam said...

Beautiful, Tanya. I love your post. Hang in there. I love and pray for you! You are one amazing mama.

Jessica said...

Hello Tanya,
I know we don't know each other but I've been worried about you! You and your family will be in my prayers. Congratulations on your new baby!

PKYoung said...

Good luck! I totally feel for you while I read that. I was insanely ill with my pregnancy as well, losing about 22 lbs and was sick for the first 22 weeks of pregnancy (not being able to keep anything done, not even fluids. Miserable I tell ya!). Going to the Dr/hospital all the time for IVs b/c I was so dehydrated. I had to drop out of school, quit my job, and was miserable all day b/c I could literally not do anything for myself. I know what you mean about the crying and praying all the time. I was constantly praying to get better or to just even not throw up for an hour. I wish I had some magic advice for you but as I'm sure you've already figured out with your first two pregnancies...time just has to pass before you get better. I hope this goes by faster for you and quickly gets better this time around! Congratulations on your pregnancy!

DOEHLER DAYS said...
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DOEHLER DAYS said...

And here I am really questioning myself on whether I want a second. I loved being pregnant, but just don't feel ready yet. You are so strong and brave to do this three times. You have made me wonder what I am waiting for. Thank you for the reminder to live life to the fullest. And I truly hope you feel better soon.

I have also awarded you the Stylish Blogger Award today. Thanks for the inspiration!

http://doehlerdays.blogspot.com/2011/02/stylish-blogger-award.html

Kelly Munns said...

when i saw that first picture it made me cry. you poor thing. i just can't even imagine what you have to go through. i just hope you know how much you are loved and how MANY people would do anything for you. i love you, dear friend.

Heidi Kingery said...

I have been wondering where you were! I have so much respect for you as a woman. I have had wonderful and easy pregnancies with all 4 of my children and I remember complaining about heartburn. If I ever have another, I will think of you and how strong you are. Know that not only has God put you where you are right now, but also where you are in the lives of others. You have an impact on everyone that comes into contact with you, even if it is only via our obsession with crafting! God bless you and your family. Prayers up for all of you.

summer said...

lucy, as i read your post today i cried. I have the very same reaction to pregancy, last time I lost 18 lbs in my 1st trimester. It is a terrifying exerience and I am so sorry you are in the throws of it. I am trying to get the mental and physical strengh to try for a 3rd baby and your post was very inspirtational! It is so hard to lose a year of your life but so wonderful to bring a new life into the world. Good luck, you are a brave woman!

Katy said...

So sorry to hear what you are going through. I am expecting my second baby and having a hard time- but nothing like what you are going through! I will be praying for you! Congratulations on the baby- and hope it does not last as long this time!

Christina said...

you're right you can make more than crafts...you can make some of the cutest kids i've ever seen!! :)here's to hoping you feel better so, so soon!!

Yvonne said...

Keep in mind what you get out of all this, a beautiful, wonderful, child that will bring you many more fantastic days than the bad ones at the moment. Stay strong guys X

KBoo said...

Praying for you and your family. hope things get better, and congrats on the litte one.

Lisa said...

Tanya, I am a follower of your blog as well and have been wondering where you disappeared to. I am hoping that you will be feeling better soon. ( have to share some belly pics when you are). You are so blessed to have such a wonderful family! Take care and will look forward to your updates.

Lisa said...

I have had the same thing with all of my pregnancies! I have never been able to relate to people who said they loved being pregnant! I love the end result...just not the incubation! I am truly sorry to hear about how sick you are. I remember being so depressed and crying a lot during my pregnancies. I will pray for you to feel better SOON!!!!

Crystal said...

Congrats on the new little one. Hope you start feeling better soon.

deveney said...

oh my goodness tanya, i had no idea that your pregnancies were and are so hard. i will totally be praying for you! you are an amazing momma and it will be so worth it once you are holding a sweet little angel in your arms!sending you love from san diego:)

Courtney said...

I am so sorry to hear that you are going through all of this. I will be sending lots of prayers your way.
I didn't have the horrible stuff that you are going through but I was on bedrest for almost 6 months at only 8 weeks in. It was one of the hardest times in my life because not only was the babies life at risk but mine was too. I had a 3 and 5 year old to care for also. Watching someone else take care of your kids and not being able to be there for them was so tough. I remember crying out of frustration and then feeling guilty for the little lives I was affecting and the new one inside me! I am only telling you this because like you said, it's all worth it in the end. AND, your kids will come through it just fine!! I hope that you get better and stronger everyday and can enjoy your pregnancy soon. Keep us posted and congratulations!!!

Andrea said...

I'm so sorry to hear how hard pregnancy is for you! It made me cry seeing the picture of Trey laying by you. What a sweet boy! I pray that you get feeling better quickly.

Marley Christensen said...

Sept 19th is my late mommys bday... and My wedding anniversary.. I feel your pain momma.. I was dead in my pregnancy with my daughter and lost almost 25 pounds.. :( Im praying for you (although Im sure you wont be reading much of anything until you are better) know that I hope you are better soon.. I know it hurts to have to be away from your babies :(

Nicole said...

Wow...I also had very difficult pregnancies...some of my darkest times spiritually as I just prayed that God would deliver from the difficulty and pain...

I will definitely be praying for you!

Mama Jill said...

I have been following your blog for a little over a month now. I love it so much! I pray that you will have a speedy recovery soon. Congratulations

Steph said...

Lots and Lots of prayers are coming your way!! I have been there. You are not alone and soon you will have a beautiful precious little blessing from heavenly father to hold in your arms :)

Heather said...

I'm so sorry you're suffering. At least it's for a good cause, I guess! I'll be praying for you and your family. :)

Janas Bananas said...

Hey, I left u a message of FaceBook, It was too long to write here. Feel better sweet girl.

Van Cott Family said...

You don't know me, but I blog stalk you and you are an inspiration! I too am pregnant and nauseous (not to your extent) I have to have c sections and that too has taught me to be grateful for my general healthy body every day, and the health of my family. We know the same Heavenly Father, and I know he knows us! Best wishes!!!
--Julie V

jaime said...

You poor thing, I am so sorry you are dealing with this.

My Husband works in the medical device industry and when I told him about you he said to send a link to a new device that just came on the market (FDA approvals) and might help you. It is a watch style device that helps with morning sickness.

Most Doctor's don't even know about it yet.

http://www.neurowavemedical.com/products/morningsickness

With as sick as you are right now, it can't hurt to find out more.

My thoughts are with you,
Jaime

Tiffani said...

Bless your heart. I am praying for you! Congratulations on your little peanut.

"Inspiring Individuals to...Rise Above" said...

I harldy know you at all. I did meet you that one time at Legoland, so I guess we're aquaintances, but my heart just broke for you. You seem like one of the most amazing people I have had the priviledge of getting to know. Hang in there. Your family appreciates your sacrafice. You can do this. Sending love to you and your little ones...

jlthomas said...

Oh Tanya! You brought tears to my eyes. I'm so sorry you have to go through so much to have your little ones. Your kids are so lucky to have you and I wish I could say I've lived every day to the fullest! Congratulations, and hang in there!

Abby said...

Thank you for sharing your story. I am in the middle of some hardtimes right now and have felt like God has abandoned me. What your dad said really touched me and made me realize the God does have us right where we need to be. So thanks again and hang in there.

Sky Buffat said...

oh my heart goes out to you! Your strength is inspiring! It is clear from your blog that you really do live to fullest with your kids each day- Thank You for sharing that zeal with us! Best of luck to you- I surely pray things get better as time goes on!

Pam said...

congratulations and the best of luck to you.....i'll keep you in my prayers :)

Rosanne said...

hey. i miss your crafts and cat wait for them to return. i cant imagine being as sick as you are. i was sick for 9 months straight with both my boys. this third pregnacy i am doing accupunture and it gets rid of the barfing and ickyness. have you tried?

marisa said...

I had surgery in September and 3 days after coming home I developed extreme nausea..worse than all 5 pregnancies. I too was in starvation mode, did not eat for 6 weeks, could only sip 3 ounces of water a day and lost 50 lbs in 3 weeks.

I had to surrender to a picc line with TPN that fed me my nutrition every night. My wonderful husband hooked it up every night an disconnected me in the morning.
I was told if I had waited to come in again, had been in 4 other times in a month for rehydration, I would've went into cardiac arrest.

I feel for you. I know how you feel. It is traumatic. I am praying for you

Donalee said...

Tanya,
As I read all of these comments I am very impressed with the followers of your blog and how many supporters you have out there who have never met you. What a wonderful circle of friends and acquaintances you have made. You have done a great job building and strengthening your community all over the nation. There is a lot of strength and love in their words. Hopefully you will endure this through the support of everyone. We love you. - Donalee

Tracie said...

I want to say Congratulations!!!! I also want to say you are in our thoughts and prayers!!!!

Marshall said...

Well, whats one more comment from a stranger. But hey, on the bright side im getting you closer to 100 comments.
I visit your blog every once in awhile. Its nice to see a super mom in action. You have been quite inspirational. I also had the same thing with my pregnancies. It is so awful when you start trying for a baby because you get that sinking feeling in the bottom of your stomach, remember almost dying every time. When you pull thru and have that beautiful baby then you can finally breathe again.

The Trailovs said...

I have followed your blog for a long time! I just want you to know that I am praying for you. Know that this is the most beautiful sacrifice you can ever give...LIFE! You are cooperating with God's plan and that in itself is beautiful. (BTW- I have a Lucy too. Their name means "light"...I hope she brings you lots of it during your pregnancy.)

Micki said...

Tanya,
Congratulations on your new little one. I'm so sorry you're going through all the nasty HG stuff (been there, done that). I hope this time surprises you and it ends faster than before. I'm glad you've got a good support system and look how many people are praying for you! Myself included!

Good luck!

Linz said...

I only know you through this blog of yours, but please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. You have such a wonderful attitude and I hope I can keep the same spirit you have when things are getting me down.

God bless!!!

Bonnie said...

Good luck, good luck, good luck. That really sounds like you're put through the ringer. On top of not feeling well, then you feel guilty about your kids, too. Granted I don't have sickness this bad when prego (I am also right now), the beginning is awful on everyone. Your prize at the end will be beautiful.

R & A said...

Oh Tanya, Congrats but I am so sorry this is so hard. We will be praying for you! Love ya!

R & A said...

Oh Tanya Congrats, but I am so sorry this is so hard for you. We will be praying for you, love ya!

Sharon said...

Hang in there!! And congratulations :)

Megan Marie said...

love you. you are an inspiration.

Delia said...

I am so sorry that you are feeling so poorly. I actually have a friend who is going through the same thing as you. She feels like she is going nuts sometimes. You gals have such great faith to continue to have children when it is such a hardship for you. I admire and respect you! I wish you the best!

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Benj and Melinda said...

Congratulations and please let me know how we can help you in any way! I would love to watch your kids, bring you a meals or clean your house :-)or anything else you may need. I hope you are feeling at least a little better! We are thinking about you.

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evelania said...

Wow. I am so sorry to hear that pregnancies are really hard on you. I love your creativity and love for your children and wish you the best in adding #3 to your mix. Glad you have someone there to help you out, she's a lifesaver it sounds like.

Classy Clutter said...

Oh my gosh! I am so sorry! We are praying that you feel better soon! Trey and Lucy (and Baby on the way) are so lucky to have a mom like you! We will all be right here when you're feeling up to it!


XO, Mallory

ceci said...

I am amazed of the kind of person you are, how strong, positive and admirable. I cannot do more than wishing you the best and pray for you. I hope that everything passes and you have another beautiful and lovable kid. Maybe you have to struggle so much because that kind of kids can't be so easy to get! you are so very lucky for everyone that surround you.
A big big hug from Argentina, and keep on fighting! Those kids worth it!
Sorry for my english, i tried my best :)

The Gunny Sack said...

Found your blog through a link and I just wanted to tell you that I also know EXACTLY what you are going through! I have done the whole deal...night in the ER, hospital stays, at-home IVs, Zofran pump, husband up at night, pacing the floors with worry. It feels like each and every day is NEVER going to end. And no one in my circle has every gone through the same thing so they can't even imagine.
I had doctors and nurses who were great and some who said I was fine and I would feel better in a couple of weeks! Yeah right, I took Zofran up till the day I delivered!
But I want to encourage you that, as my grandmother used to say, "This too shall end". Even though it feels endless! Listen to your body! My home healthcare nurses were awesome. They said to eat whatever you want. Drink whatever will stay down (Countrytime Lemonade for me).
There is an awesome support website for women with Hyperemesis at www.HelpHer.org that you should check out!

Dani Carby said...

I'm so sorry you have to go through that! UGH! It's all worth it in the end, when you get to hold that little baby! :) xox

Court and Brade said...

Tanya I love you girl, I just checked your blog, haven't checked it in a little while. congrats on adding to your family- i am so sorry you are so sick, I took care of a woman last year (I was a home care nurse) who had hyperemesis gravidarium and lost 60 pounds with her pregnancy, and still had a healthy 8 pound baby! The body is amazing right?? :) You will make it through girl... and you know this, but this baby will be worth it all. those babies are so worth it. you are the best mom tanya, i miss you when i think about ecuador :)

Ashley said...

Congratulations! I stumbled upon your blog about a year and a half ago and have loved it ever since. I even have an old school desk sitting in my garage waiting to be redone just like you did for Lucy and Trey!

I hope you feel better soon, and can't wait for more baby updates!!!!

Tay Pam Smith said...

t-girl. i'm praying for you girl. i hope things are going better for you and your darling family. congratulations...your examlpe of energy and fire totally helps me and others, i know. good luck. love, p-girl

Jenn said...

Thinking of you. <3

Preston & Syd said...

I hope you are doing well! I have always enjoyed reading about your cute little family and all of the fun things that you guys do. Hopefully your pregnancy is going well and that everything is going smoothly for that little baby! :)

Kjohnson said...

I hope you are starting to feel better! I was thinking something has been missing from my blogroll and then I remembered it was the amazingness that is always streaming out of your blog:) You keep taking care of that growing baby and I hope you aren't too horribly sick!

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M* {Daydream Believers} said...

Blessings to you and your sweet family! Congratulations on your pregnancy! I wish you the very best! Michelle

jonathan and andrea said...

well, i suppose i'm just one more comment from someone you don't know, but i'm praying for you. my sister and i both get HG with our pregnancies...so far i have lucked out and get it to a lesser degree than she does. it's just so hard. i know that feeling of joy and excitement mixed with dread at a positive pregnancy test. glad you have so much support. praying it doesn't last as long this time around!!!

Carrie B said...

Thinking about you, wishing you well!

Life In The Thrifty Lane said...

Congrats and hope you feel better soon. You are very blessed to have a wonderful SILwho loves you so much. I do to .
Veronica

Steph said...

Thinking of you today and I hope you are stating to feel better :)

Jenny said...

I actually just found your blog through someone else and am so glad that I did.

We have something in common. I have 4 kiddos and am currently pregnant with my 5th. My hyperemisis gets worse each pregnancy. My dr said she has only had one other patient get close to being as sick as I get and that woman never came back to have more children. I get as sick as you do. By week 6 I can't keep anything down. Weeks 7-10 are spent in and out of the hospital getting iv fluid and iv meds. The zofran pump doesnt work for me so I have had 4 Picc lines now which is an iv line that goes in my
Arm to my heart. I am usually on home health care for about 2 months. My meds only work to stop the throwing up if they are in the Picc line. It sucks! I have been there with the tears, the fervent prayers, the feelings of being forgotten. It is SOOOO hard! I wonder the whole time why me? Why is the Lord making me go through this when all I'm trying to do is what he has asked of me. But your dad is right. It is where the Lord wants us to be... To helps us remember Him, to come to Him, and to call upon Him....and it is there in the midst of our pain and suffering that we find Him. It is there that He lifts us and helps to ease our burdens. You are a strong woman. You are going through what not many women go through, but you do it because of the wonderful blessings of motherhood, because that is your Devine calling as a daughter of God. You can do it! If you ever want to talk, contact me. I've been there. Prayers that you will soon get better! You are lucky to have a great family to care for you and to try to help ease this trial.

Lundohana (at) gmail (d0t) com

Alyssa said...

You are amazing! I just found your blog, and I can say just by this post that you are an awesome person! All of your children will thank you for living through these 5 months later in life!

I will keep you in my prayers! I hope you feel so much better!

Kristen said...

I am so sorry. As a person who has this same thing when I am pregnant I want to say I know how bad it can be, but I hope things get better for you soon and you are able to enjoy the time with your family. Congrats on baby #3

Jennifer @ Hope and Faith Creations said...

Tanya, just wanted to say I've been thinking of you since I first read this post....I hope you are feeling better & getting some rest. I experienced pretty nasty hyperemesis with both my girls & ended up in the hospital a few times with each girl....Keeping you in my prayers!

Steph at ModernParentsMessyKids.com said...

I just found your blog and I just love your style.

I was sick for the first 5 months of both my pregnancies too It was awful - or at least I thought it was until I read your story. It is an amazing gift that you are giving to your children by surviving and fighting through the pain each and every day!

I, and all your other followers, will be here waiting when you're ready to return. Until then my thoughts and prayers are with you :)

wingchick99 said...

oh hun i just found your blog and am enjoying it i hope you are doing well

sarahespn said...

Hope your doing okay. Miss seeing what is going on but totally understand. Praying for you.

Lori said...

Blessings to you - congrats! :)

PS - just used one of your tutorials... you're a genius!

Jennifer said...

Hoping all this pain brings you an amazing bundle of joy
Jennifer
www.bigdandme.com

Lisa said...

Tanya, I hadn't seen this post until you posted today. So sorry to hear of your Extreme Edition Pregnancy - I am keeping you in my prayers that this part will pass more quickly this time and you will be feeling better soon. Sending lots of virtual bloggy hugs your way.

Derek and Emily said...

As I read this post I had tears streaming down my face. My pregnancies are difficult as well and I felt such empathy for you and your family. My prayers with you. Thank you for sharing such a very personal experience. Know that there are others out there who are thinking of you and sending you positive thoughts.

~Crystal~ said...

Tanya, you are a Superhero Mom! Your sacrifice for your babies is so inspiring. I'm praying for you. I hope it gets better soon. PS, I wrote about you in my blog, hope you don't mind :)
bloggingbycrystal.blogspot.com

aezra noell said...

I will add you to my prayers.I just feel for you so much i wish i could take it all away. No One should have to endure what you are going through. Know this, not a soul can handle what you're going through, because this trial is particular to you and you alone. But Heavenly Father knows that you can endure it because He does not inflict upon you what you can't handle. With today's technologies and your will and strength, you are given the opportunity to bare one of his "Noble and Great Ones" into this world. You can make it happen sister!(((HUG)))
ps.LifeSaver peppermints were a life saver! jus suckin' on one of those suckers sure helped me, jus thought i'd pass along.

Ashley Ann said...

I am so excited for you and your family on this news of your new arrival! I'm Due Sept 3rd and can completely relate to what you are going through. Though, with my 1st two, I did not experience this at all! It came as such a shock and within my first 2 months I lost 19 lbs. And I'm still losing it, though much at a much slower pace as I am now able to get a little bit of food down.

Glad to hear you are feeling better, and my prayers are with you. You are so incredibly Blessed to have the special supportive network of family and friends. It makes all the difference!

And congrats again!! :]

Jamie Willow said...

someone forwarded me this post. I am sitting here crying. I am 14 w preg tomorrow and I have a zofran pump and I've lost 8 lbs and my 2 yr old pretends to "frow up" like mommy and my husband is overwhelmed by it all.
I guess it's just always nice to know others understand.

I see this was in Feb...maybe baby is here by now? I will look around your blog now and see for myself.

blessings and thanks for sharing your struggles.

Jamie

Damaris said...

did they prescribed you Zofran, maybe you are over your symptoms but it really works, best little pill ever during the pregnancy, I took it with both my pregnancies and it was just wonderful! however some insurances don't cover it and is a little expensive... but worth it!

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